the sweetest sin ever

im moving!

alexa — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 12:19:12 +0000

it’s been nice here but im moving again!

sorry people ~

empty shell.

alexa — Sun, 01 Feb 2009 13:46:07 +0000

I spent the whole day at home, eating meds and sleeping. There’s sch tmrw. Okay i’m going school tmrw. Yeah.

Life’s getting boring, always doing the same old thing. What else new? Zilch. Nothing. Zero.

Feel like an empty shell.

But i can’t hide the truth,

alexa — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 13:52:45 +0000

I’m sick again. Panadols and flu meds are my friends now. It sucks.

I’ve been thinking alot of stuffs just now..It finally hit me that exam’s coming very very fast, on 9th feb if im not wrong? I don’t even know the exact date of the exams. I’ve been falling back, and living in my own world these few weeks. I don’t know what’s wrong, i don’t even want to try to keep track of school life anymore. I sense trouble.

Shadows in your eyes
Your smile is colored black
You don’t need someone who never saw your empty life
I never made you smile I promise deep inside
I’m gonna be the one who’s gonna keep you satisfied
I’ll make it up to
I promise to
I really wanna tell you I’m sorry
You’re just a part of me
And I can’t let you go
Please forgive me

im all alone now….

alexa — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 11:35:17 +0000

in compass point library!!!! it’s only 7.30pm i’ve been surfing the ‘net for like half an hr already….i still have 30 mins more to go before that person arrives! i over-estimated the travelling time from tampines to compass point! I thought that there would be traffic jams or stuff since it’s the peak hour. and this keyboard is so friggin hard to use, whenever im typing it seems like im slamming the keyboard. THIS IS JUST SO IRRITATING PLS! And i’m reading gossipgalore forum & hwz forum stuffs. SO FRIGGIN FUNNY PLS. And the person im supposed to meet up to collect the stuff is so kiam pak..he/she dont wanna reply my msg. What if he/she forget about the meet-up today?!?!!! It’s still 7.30pm even though i’ve typed so much -_-

I’m bored. I’m bored. I’m bored.

It’s 3cents per minute of computer usage. Imagine how much it is. To spend 45 mins in the library using computer, and the connection is shittttt. AND I JUST RECEIVE A MSG FROM THE SELLER!!!!! He/she WILL BE LATE. AND CHANGED THE MEETING TIME TO 830PM!!!!! MEANS I STILL GOT ONE HOUR TO GO!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHH. there’s no one to talk to me now and im crapping randomly.

AND im so smelly now,after playing badminton with them just now. I wanna bath i wanna bath i wanna bath!!!!!!!!!!! By the time i reach home it’ll be 9plus alreadyyyyyyy

ROAR.

/edited 9.51pm

I’m finally back home! It was a lady auntie. Grrrr made me wait so long.
Anyway just now i was walking along the road and there was 2 ah bengs sitting on the wall or whatever, smoking. And one of them saw me and tell his friend “eh, got xiao mei mei lei!” eh wtf ?! I look like xiao mei mei meh?! I think i also older than them lor knn. Somemore i smoking lei.

Luckyyyy i saw a friend of mine, so he gave me a ride home. Imagine wearing uniform, carrying bag & a plastic bag, hair messy..on a bike. And I dropped a brand new just opened pack of cigs on the road. Cus i was attempting to light up while he was speeding. Stupid me.

Sometimes i am so clumpsy i can slap myself.

Bye.

happy cny…and an update finally.

alexa — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 13:30:47 +0000

Happy Chinese New Year people! May the guys all grow more fit & handsome, and the girls slim & pretty..(except for some!) and everyone get loads of angbaos okay!

Okay it’s the 3rd day of cny already, and school also begins today again. But i didn’t attend school today. More on this sickening topic later on.

Reunion dinner. 2 days of it, on the 24th and 25th! This year, 24th for the whole family, which includes all relatives. And 25th, just the immediate family. But i don’t know why, i just can’t feel the cny mood at all. I didn’t friggin touch any cny goodies this year, not the bak kwa, pineapple tarts, love letters etc. Don’t have the mood to eat that, even though my hse’s filled with them now!

First day of CNY, went for new year visiting at 11am you know!! Too early for me already actually. And the yearly questions always appear without fail. And having to smile politely at their questions and teasings, making it seem that i enjoy it very much. Argh. And the angbaos seem to disappear by half! No profit this year

me & the 3rd imp

me & the 2nd imp!

And i left for home to bath before meeting cx, kristy & bf for the esplanade cny celebration thing. AND THE STUPID ME DIDNT BRING MY KEYS OUT. And my family’s still outside. I had to resort to going to every hse in my level to try to borrow **! And the worst part is, not a single family’s at home! I had to wait for around 15 mins before an indian family came home. And i borrowed a ** from them to open my doors. I seriously must make a habit to check if my keys are in my bag before i go out. This is not the first time already, grr.

Esplanade for chilling and the new year celebration stuff. No photos, cx’s the only one who took pictures of it! But…still.

coconut girl

CNY DAY 2! Visiting at amk! My youngest sister and her family. (Don’t ask me. If you know, good for you. If you don’t, don’t kpo!) It’s been an yearly affair whereby we really get to see each other for long hours and catch up. And the adults gambled, seriously from 2pm all the way till 9pm?! Only stopping for an hour in between just to replenish energy.

And my throat actually started to hurt damn very much. It feels like shit, just swallowing saliva and water. I’m such a lousy ass i know.

youngest imp & me!

take 2!

I’m so damn tired already. I can’t bring myself to wake up to go to school today. It was already lateee when i reached home ystd. Not my fault, it’s my dad’s! Haha.

I downloaded “Breaking Dawn” and finished it in 6 hours! Omg it’s very good, i read for 6 hours continuously! And now i’ve got all 4 books in my thumbdrive already. Hee. I love Edward & Bella together. And Jacob’s rather cute in Breaking Dawn. And the baby Renesmee! Cute totally. Anyway I have to go to school tmrw, boring. Bye.

soab

alexa — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 11:48:01 +0000

Eh very no mood now. Idk why the fuck my stomach is still cramping, shit period srsly. Bad day, i had to off my phone just now cus the son of a bitch kept calling and disturbing me. SON OF A BITCH!

To my dearest coconut

alexa — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 07:54:34 +0000

camwhoring days

Happy 19th Birthday sweetie!

You’re finally 19 already, there’re still many many things waiting for you to try out, and many many birthdays to go. We’ve been friends for a short period of time, but your pictures are already appearing in my room on my wall. This goes to show the many lil’ things that we’ve gone through, and there’ll be many many more. I hope that you’ll be happy everyday! Stay pretty and cute. I’ll be seeing you later. Love ya tons!

/edit

random lights

I’m back from a mini-celebration for the birthday girl. Met them at ehub for awhile, pool and then off to town park to chill. I bought a slice of cake for her and we sang the birthday song in engcheena for her. Hope she’s really happy today. They laughed at the way i wrapped her presents! I couldn’t get a wrapping paper in time.

My dad found out i’m smoking! And i just gave him some stupid excuses. Hope he’s not gonna spot check on me someday.

I kinda miss him today.

the peace i’ve never had…for so long.

alexa — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 16:47:33 +0000

School today, i’m punctual. and attended morning lessons too. Ha but it’s seriously goddamn tiring lah. And my period finallyyyy arrived..after like 4 months. Having cramps the whole day, it was like goddamn painful and torturous!!! Sometimes i really wish i’m a boy y’know. Boys dont have to endure monthly cramps. It’s just so irritating.

Was hanging out with them till like 7 before I left to meet Jan! School is seriously tiring and crappy. BCM teacher said to me, ” Nice to see you attending my class again, after so long. Come more often pls. ” LOL. And both Mrs K and Ms Q texted me in the mornings, making sure im going to school. Wooohoo. I’llmakeanefforttogoschoolmoreoftenlynowokay.

Met Jan at the salon at around 8 where she did her hair, and me, chatting on the phone with friend, and flipping through hair magazines. Feel like changing my hairstyle. And then we bought WaterRise!!!! Woohoo one of my favourite ‘snack’ store now. And we went to chill at town park.

Chatted and gossiped. It’s been 3 months since I saw tt lady. She’s like the only secondary school friend i’m still in touch with, and the person I opened up my heart to. Time really pass so fast.. It’s been 5 years. And we’re gonna be 20 soon.

It’s gonna be 1am soon, and i just reached home not long ago. There’s sch at 8am tmrw wooooohoo. And there’s still c- session after sch tmrw. Idk what im gonna tell the c-. She knows i havent been in school, and i’ve been delaying sessions with her. Cus i wanna avoid. Argh.

Im gonna turn in like now. Today is one of the perfect day i’ve ever had in monthsssss. It’s peaceful today.

And i miss him. I seriously YEARN to see him soon. Omg i’m like going through the crush/infatuation phase again.

LIGHTS OUT.

you’re so dangerous

alexa — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 12:41:59 +0000

I think I’m hooked by someone, in and out. I seriously just can’t stop thinking about him, ohmygawd.

I gotta get my life back on track, going to school regularly again. No late nights (highly impossible!) and studying regularly I’ll try my best.

I’m still thinking about him! No love no love no love no love no love no love don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love no love don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think don’t think !!!

major situation

alexa — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 08:29:03 +0000

Current cravings:

chocolates
alcohol & liquor!!!!
home cooked century egg porridge!
cokecokecoke
pizza

p/s: i can’t get someone outta my head for the whole night yesterday *grins

But love is a restricted zone for me now.